Soooo… Who’s not surprised I haven’t posted in 8 months?

Super Bloom LA 2019

*raises hand*

Doesn’t this always happen? I don’t even know what I’m still paying hosting for haha. But I guess it’s history; it’s a part of me that I’ve had since I was 12yrs old, when my friend Katie recommended we start a blog together and subsequently lured me into the world of digital diaries with cute layouts and html.

I don’t update often, but I can’t imagine not having my little corner of the internet here.

So, where to begin! Over the past 8 months I have:
– become engaged (!!!)
– suffered from major burnout (probably still suffering this)
– almost got kidnapped on my way home from the airport (this happened late on Sunday night/Monday morning. I’m still processing this.)

All of the above deserve posts of their own, which I will aim to do in the coming weeks. Either way, it feels good to be writing again. Perhaps part of my burnout is due to not being able to process well from lack of writing. Talking about things helps a lot.

Oh, on other news I also finished MasterLife at Church! Honestly I have mixed feelings about it. Will aim to write something about that too. I should probably start signing off with my actual name too.

Blessings,
Crystina
P.S. Featured image is that of the LA super bloom this year! Our youth group took a trip out in March. I’m no photographer, but I was really happy with how that photo turned out – it was definitely one of my favourites.

Week 1 Recap

Yay this week has been super productive. And when I say week, I mean Jan 1-7th. Even though that’s 8 days. But whatever, I’m writing this now, ok?? :P

  • I blog 3x (this is the third!)
  • exercised 4x (I just came back from getting my butt kicked by NCT 127’s Simon Says. Thanks, Yireh.)
  • Our new pastor started!
  • I read Bible & did devo daily, except Sunday… but that’s because on Sunday I got our pastor’s sermon notes (yay!) and was re-reading them at home and my brain was more or less exploding. (It was a really good sermon. On the Source, Service and Significance of Scriptures from 2 Tim. 3:16 – 4:2. Yep, 3 verses. I wasn’t able to fully get it during the sermon and even reading at home afterwards I felt my head pounding with all the info. I had to stop after section 1 to allow myself time to absorb. One day I wish someone would invent photosynthesis for humans and information.)

I think those were my primary goals fulfilled. Though getting more exercise wasn’t even on the list haha, but I guess I really wanted to stop being so unhealthy.

It feels great to be physically fitter, but more importantly it feels great to be in better shape spiritually. God knows I’d die without Him. I don’t even know what gave me the audacity to think I could handle my life alone for a while. 

Just being in a better place with Him has meant most if not all the stress has been lifted off my shoulders. I read an article about millennials being the the burnout generation, and to a large degree I agree, I can feel it in myself as well.

However, I suddenly had a thought that maybe a lot of the burnout also has to do with our generation being the one that is arguably furthest from God. View Full Post

Friday the 13th

DokDok Chicken

For the superstitious, Friday the 13th is an unlucky day. For my mum, the number 13 is lucky. In my case, it happened to be one of the most blessed days I’ve had so far this year. I love that my previous post documented my anxiety during this job hunt and the importance of not losing faith. That was a short week and a half ago, and in the following 7 days of that post, miracles have happened.

The picture above was my celebratory dinner on Friday the 13th, because in those 7 days from 6th – 13th Jan, I was blessed with not one but two very attractive job offers, both at impressive companies, and finally accepted an offer with one of them. I’ve signed the contract and start a week on Monday.

It also happened to be my mum’s birthday (happy birthday, mummy!) and she was thrilled at the offer I’d ended up accepting, saying that was the best birthday gift ever (I feel sorry I couldn’t be there to celebrate with her, but I did work hard to show her daughter was worth 2 offers and felt fuzzy butterflies when she wrote in our family chat that she was proud of me <3)

The crazy thing is, the company I ended up accepting the offer for only got in touch last week, and initially I thought it couldn’t possibly work out because I was pressed for time and at the end stages of interviews with two other companies already, and I’d begged for Him to let me complete the process that week already.

But I should know by now that that’s never the way He works :) And in a way, I love that – the fact that things just worked out so perfectly, so wonderfully, at the very last minute, are a sign to me that miracles still happen on a daily basis. Some people like to call it fate, but as a Christian, I call it grace, not least because I know that it’s not something I could have ever accomplished on my own. View Full Post

Faith, Hope.

One of the most dangerous things, I’ve realised, at least for me, is to lose faith.

I think at various points in my life, I have felt it. Lost, confused, restless, directionless, even if things are continuing as normal, even if things seem to be fine, there’s an inner numbness that cannot be overcome.

These days, I feel anxious. I’m exhausted; I’m mentally drained, I’m physically tired.

I don’t want to sound negative, but I think I am going through a phase in my life where there are so many uncertainties that are manifesting itself into negative energy and anxiety in my body. I can’t help but be negative, even if I don’t necessarily *feel* negative. Mentally, I am thankful and glad for my situation. I feel blessed. Let me talk about those blessings, to see if it might help:

I had a wonderful Christmas on the whole (although I did need to adjust my mindset for a different way of celebration over here) and an amazing New Year’s celebration (I went for dim sum lunch followed by KTV with Bellman Fellowship, then another brother’s house for a New Year’s party in the evening).

Santa Monica Pier View Full Post