I don’t really know how to begin. Even with ‘challenge’ in the title you can clearly see that I have skipped days. I have continued to think upon and have devotionals, but I have not written them publicly.

There has been a few things on my heart lately, but mostly I continue to be in awe of the God I serve. Delighting in the Trinity is one of those books that is really helping me to piece together the fragments of knowledge that I’ve collected about the Trinity over the years, and bring them together to form a deeper understanding and far greater appreciation for who God is.

Finally I’m able to better understand what John meant when he wrote “God is love” in 1 John 4, and better understand the Person of the Holy Spirit, and better understand how everything God does comes from Him being love… and how all of that is dependent on God being Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

The doctrine of the Trinity is fundamental to Christian beliefs; I’ve always known this, but never truly studied it. I have indeed been very blessed by studying this book with my Wednesday women’s group.

I had a really lovely time of devotion this morning as well… it really had been a while since I’ve had a deeper devotional time. I can’t quite explain the multitude of emotions I felt from it but I can tell you it was something I’d been in desperate need of for some time.

Despite some things creeping up and causing me to feel a little anxious every now and again, I’m filled with gratitude today. I felt such a strong sense of peace and comfort this morning. I know my God is in control; I just need to focus on being Kingdom-minded.

Heavenly Father,

I don’t have the words to express my gratitude towards You or how in awe of You I am of You. Your majesty and beauty leaves me breathless. Indeed, pages upon pages of psalms are written to praise You and yet they still barely scratch the surface of how truly awesome You are. You have invited me in to the fellowship of the Trinity through the indwelling of Your Spirit. Oh that I could be gifted with words, to write a love letter that would be remotely worthy of describing You. Blessed be Your name, O Lord. May You and You alone be glorified.

Soli Deo gloria,

Crystina

Heavenly Father,

You are not surprised by the results of the election, and I thank You that indeed You are sovereign, and You have chosen Biden for Your purposes. In light of these election results, I continue to pray that those who call themselves Christians – especially myself – will respond in a manner that is glorifying to You.

I am so deeply reminded of my need for You – and indeed, humanity’s need for you; the need for a Saviour. In a nation so divided, I only see need of more love, more forgiveness, more grace… all of these things that we – or at least I – could never achieve on our own willpower, for we are all fallen; selfish, prideful, sinful.

We are all so broken. We have all sinned in different ways. We have all been hurt in different ways. Most of us have been deeply traumatised in one way or another. We try to rationalise any sinful responses as due to what we have been through, we try to diminish our responsibility to ease our conscience, we tell ourselves that You do not exist so therefore there is no ultimate authority to whom we are accountable.

But at the end of the day, what we need is You: Your perfect, perfect love and perfect forgiveness… to know that we are deeply loved no matter what, to know that we are fully forgiven and can have reconciliation with You – our Father, creator God – through simply accepting and believing in Jesus.

I pray that those who have been hurt may have opportunities to reach out to You, be comforted by You, and accept the deep, deep love and complete forgiveness and reconciliation that they can have with You through Your Son Jesus Christ; to be restored into a right relationship with You but also made whole – made new. And not only that, but to also have hope of eternity in Christ’s second coming.

I thank You that I have had the privilege of turning to You and accepting Christ, that now those former burdens have disappeared in light of Your salvation and grace. I pray that I will be desperate to share your love, compassion, passion and heart for the lost and to show them how deeply You care for them as well. You have not given up on them, I pray that I will not either. No one is too far gone for You, O Lord. I pray that I will not forget this. Please, if You are willing, use me for Your Kingdom purposes.

Lord May You and You alone be glorified. Amen.

Soli Deo gloria,

Crystina

It was bound to happen, I suppose, that there would be a day I didn’t add a devotional despite ‘challenging’ myself to. I don’t really have an excuse, my priorities were off – I was distracted by Twitch, YouTube and Discord and the day disappeared.

I did read Bible yesterday, in that I was reading/re-reading Hebrews 7-8 for recording purposes. But I don’t know if I really took time to reflect on what I was reading. In addition, I was not satisfied with any of my reading takes so eventually gave up. (I did complete the recording today though.)

Today I also re-read most of Ephesians as part of Friday fellowship in the evening (very fitting that one of the themes is unity during times like this). There is a lot to think upon, but primarily I am taking time to really consider if I am being a good ambassador for Christ or living a godly life.

Can people tell that I live for Someone greater than myself? Am I even living for Someone greater than myself? Do my words reflect the love of Christ? Does my heart reflect that of one forgiven from their many sins? Do I show grace the way I am shown grace? If I’m honest, I think the answer a lot of the time is ‘no’.

Lord Jesus,

I am sorry that I so often forget You in my life. Though You are to be the centre of my life and being, so often I place You as an afterthought. Yet without You I would have no life. Lord, I thank You that You continue to convict and bring me back before Your presence. I thank You for dying on the cross for my sins… You suffered the sinner’s death that I deserved and gifted me grace that I do not deserve and could never earn.

Lord, please, please, please do not let me continue to take it for granted. Do not let me go a day without kneeling before You and remembering Your sacrifice, Lord. Let my heart be filled with gratitude for Your love, let that love flow outwards in my attitude towards others as well. King Jesus, You are highly exalted above the heavens… please take your rightful place as King of my heart. May I live for you.

Lord, please give me an eagerness for the spread of Your Kingdom and Your gospel. Grant me a heart for the lost as You care for them. Grant me eyes to see how to reach out to them in a loving way. Grant me a heart that loves those whom You love, especially my brothers and sisters, with whom I am reconciled by your blood and have unity with by Your Spirit.

In the wake of the election, I still pray that regardless of what the result is, that those who call themselves Christians – especially myself – will respond in a manner that is glorifying to You. May You and You alone be glorified. Amen.

Soli Deo gloria,

Crystina

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for today, for Your guidance and Your peace, for indeed it has been a peaceful day for me. Thank You for the opportunity to have had fellowship once again with my sisters in Christ during small group. Thank You for Your gift of grace – that is, the indwelling of Your Holy Spirit, so that I might enjoy fellowship with You and share in Your love.

However, I realise that events of the past couple of days have been a source of turmoil for many people, so I pray that Your peace may extend to those who are still feeling anxious for one reason or another. Please let Your presence be made known to them. I continue to lift up prayers for the election… Please continue to guide those who are counting the votes, continue to guide those who are in positions of authority, I also pray for the hearts of everyone who is following election news.

I pray that by some miracle, if it is Your will, that this election will not split an already divided nation further. I still pray that regardless of what the result is, that those who call themselves Christians – especially myself – will respond in a manner that is glorifying to You. But above all else, I pray all this only if it is in accordance with Your will. May You and You alone be glorified. Amen.

Soli Deo gloria,

Crystina

Heavenly Father,

My heart is a little heavy and weary today, but You already knew that. The elections are in Your hands and that is not what I am saddened by, but rather it hurts my heart to see the polarisation and division within this nation that is supposed to be one, united under God.

Lord, I know that no matter what happens all of it would be according to Your sovereign will, but I still wish to lift up my voice to join with the prayers of the Saints.

I pray for the elected leader to be one that may bring times of peace to this nation, that conditions may be favourable for the spread of Your gospel, that more people will come to be saved and called into your family through Jesus, that through Jesus we may all be united and that America may indeed be one nation under the One true God. May you comfort hearts of those who are anxious or weary this week. May we come to you and find rest.

I pray that regardless of what the result is, that those who call themselves Christians – especially myself – will respond in a manner that is glorifying to You. But above all else, I pray all this only if it is in accordance with Your will. May You and You alone be glorified. Amen.

Soli Deo gloria,

Crystina